I am pretty open about myself, where I am right now, my emotions, etc. but there are some things I do not expand on as they are not just my stories to share. However, I feel compelled to talk a bit more about my private life and learnings today, when looking through the camera roll on my computer.
Here I am with my daughter (2 y.o) and my son ( 4 1/2 y.o.):
- 12 days after splitting up with their father;
- 3 days before moving house;
- Exactly 1 month before giving birth to my 3rd child.
First, when I look at this photo, I commend myself. I know I did my best to be a good mum. It was a tough time, especially after number 3 was born. He cried loads and that is no surprise when you think about what his life had been so far. I cried at times too, shouted, screamed, pulled my hair. But not as much as I loved, hugged, talked, reassured.
For months, I struggled. I put in a lot of effort to get better but I was living my life like a victim and it is only when I was able to change that, that life looked up.
I take responsibility for what happened. It didn’t happen TO me. It just happened. And when I say “I take”, I really mean that. It is my power to take responsibility. Everything that happens in my life, I have an influence on. You receive what you tolerate.
This is not a pity post, far from it! I am the best version of myself I have ever been and I have so much more growing to come. I have learned so much since I took this picture.
If I could speak to the “me” in that picture I would say this:
“Everything is happening exactly as it is supposed to. You are going through huge change and greatness is on the other side. Just put your trust in the universe and everything will come to you in good time.
Know your worth. Set boundaries. Take responsibility. Take back your power. And let love and strength shine from your heart.”
To all of you going through distress and turmoil, I feel you. Reach out to me and I will help you through it on a free coaching call. You are worth so much more.